hmmm

i have stuff to say

but not now, maybe later

Sooo...yeah i havent written in this thing in foooorrreevvver, but todays news DEFINATELY needs to be commented on.

Nick Lowe, one of my BEST FRIENDS if not the best friend, just found out that he has achieved his dream...he got into the United States Naval Academy.

All I can say is congratulations man, this has been your dream for soo long and i'm finally glad that you get to go and do what you want (and put your tattoo to good use, heh).

I guess if im going to tell the truth, i should tell the entire truth though. Nick, I have to be honest with you, I know that you have been wanting this for soo long, but i think, no im pretty sure that a part of me always hoped that you wouldnt get in though. Dont think that i didnt want you to get in though, thats not what i meant at all, you know that i have always been the first one to say that you would, but i have to be honest in that part of me kinda hoped you wouldnt get in. You have been my closest friend since junior year when we had the same exact schedule (except for tennis/football and every other sport you did). Ill prob never forget those IB days, those were all good times. But i think we became even closer friends AFTER high school and i think that really shows a true friendship. anybody can be friends if youre forced to see each other every day and stuff, but to keep in touch when you arent even in the same damn town and just chilling and stuff and becoming closer friends is something different. You've always been my right hand man and i dont want that to change, which is why part of me didnt want you to go to navy, and i think a lot of people will say the same thing. youre a great guy and an even better friend and itll def be hard to see you go, but this is your dream and we all realize that this is something that youve wanted for soo long and you should definately enjoy it. but none of us want to lose such an awesome friend that is willing to do whatever for you, you always had my back and i am truly grateful to have had you as my best friend over the past 4 or 5 years.

Wow, we have just gone through soo much together over the years, and when i think of you leaving its like a part of me is leaving (a big part at that). You've been more then a friend to me over the years, you were like my brother, you still are. and even though you didnt call me first to say that you got in, im willing to forgive you bc you told amar, who is our other brother, so its all good. (tarek dont worry, youre our brother too, our somewhat weirder, dumber brother but a brother just the same, heh jk jk).

but yeah congratulations again and you better keep in touch or ill go up to annapolis and kick your ass myself. (and dont think i wont).

CONGRATULATIONS NICK LOWE!!!!!
and always remember the naval academy's motto.....
Kill, Swim, and Learn!!!

haha jk jk........  "Knowledge Through Seapower"

congratulations man.

well it is officially 2005.

The new year always gets me thinking, like without a doubt it is definately a time of the year when i do A LOT of thinking. I think about the year and what has happened...kind of my own personal Year in Review type thing as well as like things that i want to change about myself...new years resolutions basically.

just thinking about the previous year there is sooo much that has happened. i really cant believe how much has changed in my life in a single year. i wont go into details, unless you really really want me to, which then you would have to ask me and ill think about it and decide if i want to tell you (most likely itll be yes and ill tell you soo much that you will regret ever asking me). but anyways, ill just talk about resolutions and stuff.

Luis' New Year's Resolutions for '05

1) No more petty arguments/drama
2) Concentrate more on school
3) Be less selfish and try to be there more for my friends and family
4) Go to the gym more (im pretty sure that everybody has this one)
5) Just to try and be a better overall Son, brother, friend.....person

I think that these are all pretty important things that i really need to work on so i can grow as a person i guess. I mean life is seriously way too short to worry about the small things and letting petty differences or arguments get in the way of great friendships is stupid. I will definately need help with all of these, im really not sure if i can do all of these things by myself. Just thinking about '04 i realize that i was selfish a lot and that is something that i desperately want to change, i really dont think that i was always there for my friends when they really needed me and if i was there im not sure that i was always in tune to what they really wanted. this past year ive come to realize how much my friendships mean to me as well as the work that is needed to maintain all of them. I used to take my friends for granted and now i want to change that with all of my heart. If you dont know, im telling you now, and if you already know im going to tell you again, if you EVER, EVER need somebody to talk to, PLEASE COME TO ME. I may not have all of the answers or any answers for that matter, but i will always listen when you need a friend to just hear you out. if you need to vent out some frustration, take it out on me. seriously...all i want to do this upcoming year is be there for my friends because they have always been there for me and i want to show them at least a fraction of the support that they have always given me. 

well i think i am done rambling, its 5:45am and i guess im tired now...i dont know, i still feel pretty pensive, contemplative, reflective whatever. i might stay up, i might go to bed. who knows. but happy new year to everybody and today is the rose bowl so everybody should cheer for the longhorns!

HOOK 'EM!!!

i have a feeling that this was a worthless post. i dont know ill read it later. goodnight/morning....eh whatever you know what i mean.

well i dont know what has come over me, but i have decided to update this, seeing that i havent updated in like three months.

wow, i really cant believe that 2004 is almost over. looking back on the year i can remember a lot of good times and some bad ones as well. but the more important thing is that i think that ive learned from both the good and the bad experiences and have realized more about myself.

im sooo glad that this semester is over. finals were hard and they sucked and i really really REALLY hate studying, but now after having to torture myself i get to relax. I was out til like 2 last night slept til 11:45 or so and i did absolutely NOTHING today. it was beautiful. overall i would say that today was a pretty good day, slept in, got to be lazy, somebody brought me brownies, and more importantly i WON 15 dollars playing poker against some pretty good competition.

for those of you that dont know, im going to Cancun...on SATURDAY.....oh crap thats tomorrow. wow. i am soo ready to go. i have to get my mind off of stuff, and i think a nice little trip out of the country could do just that. im soo pumped, this trip is going to be awesome, i cant wait. we're gonna be gone for almost a week, which isnt too shabby, considering my dad is on call and has to work ALL THE TIME. he deserves a vacation, but more importantly i GET a vacation. im definately gonna have some fun, im gonna go to the beach, do a little swimming, hit up the pools, hit up the bar(s), meet a nice mexican girl, and catch a big fish (im thinking like a marlin or something). yes, that is my plan for mexico...ok ok the girl doesnt have to be mexican i wont discriminate. i just hope that we dont do a bunch of crappy stuff, or that the weather sucks, that could def dampen my mood, but i will definately make the best out of whatever happens. soo yeah, my parents still dont know that i have a tattoo, so they are def going to be finding out this weekend. i wonder how they are gonna take it. i really dont think my dad will care, but my mom, yeah shes another story. she could either be overwhelmed by the fact that we are in a beautiful tropical location and totally ignore the tattoo or she could go crazy and like rip off my skin. that would def suck. soo lets all pray that she doesnt care. im still like trying to think of how im going to tell them. i almost told my mom about it when we were driving back, but i didnt want to chance me getting left out in the middle of nowhere and having to walk back to lubbock, so i opted to wait. man just thinking about it makes me a little nervous.

but anyways...its good to be back in lubbock. get to hang out with old friends and hear stories about how everybody's finals/semesters went.

wow, a lot has really changed in a year. i wont go into details, not on here anyways, but yeah a lot has definately changed. sad to say, but i think a lot of it has changed for the worse, at least it feels like that right now.

but yeah i think thats all the updating that i want to do for now. who knows i might come back from cancun and post some pictures or something (first time that i will have ever done that, so stay tuned)

hmm..i wonder if people even look at these anymore, i highly doubt it, but i guess we shall see.

the moment when you realize the truth, no matter how much you may want to deny the fact that it is the truth, may be the saddest realization of all.

 i have realized the truth, i cant deny it anymore